Wednesday, September 10, 2008

College Bound

Well, not so much college bound as already IN college. I had my first class on Monday evening. See guys, I'm doing better with this updating thing! Only a couple days out from then. Any way. As disappointing as it may be to those of you who were really hoping for that restaurant and discounted food, I'm afraid I've decided to leave my cooking and writing where they are, as wonderful pass times to put me in my happy place. Instead I have given in to the part of me that I've tried for so long to deny and suppress. I'm in a computer tech program at ITT. My schedule is rather simple for this quarter and I must confess, it's so nice to be back in a class room with an idea of what I want to make myself into. This whole going back to school business is exciting for me. For the most part any way.

I know my family is excited for me, at least the majority of them. There's one defector though, one who seems bent on ruining the whole experience for me, and it's nothing new either. Dear ol dad is baffled at why on earth I would want to go back to school for. Talking to my oldest sister I think she had the right of it when she said he's never expected anything of me. I'm not sure what would hurt more though, having him expect too much of me and falling short, or my present situation where he never really expected me to do anything with my life. I was just.... one of the seven. He actually had the audacity to sit in the Financial Aid Administrators office and ask me why I was bothering with this. The FA guy was kind enough to pretend like he hadn't heard, but it was hard to ignore his next few comments about how easy college was for him and how I should just go to the community college for something more simple and then began to boast about Annabelly's full ride scholarship to BYU-I. I will never begrudge my baby sister anything, I am more than proud of her for being able to still pull out stellar academic achievements amidst a sea of family drama, but it stung a bit that my own dad thought it appropriate to point that out while I was in the process of getting my own life on track. It's times like those that I wish I had found a guy to get married to already, to rid myself of any kind of obligation to that man.

I refuse to let him dampen my spirit, however. My instructors are very kind, the head of my program is very excited to have me there and I have many others around me who are happy to see me moving forward and have already offered helping hands. Who needs him, right? Not I, said the happy box thrower from the corner.

I bid you all adieu and will try to continue with the updates.

7 comments:

Hetzlers said...

hey there. this is tim. i'm sure you know of frustrations i've had with your dad. I would love to call and give him a peace of my mind but i've also recived a little flack from some for doing so. you'll do just fine. if i can make it through school, anyone can. i'm sure you'll pull of "sariah grades," i just wish i could.

Brown Family said...

Oh sis, you'll do great!! It doesn't matter what anyone thinks, school is something you do for you. If you set aside the time and energy and have faith that you can make it, you will. It's all up to you and what you put into it! I know you'll do great! Everyone is different. I never got "Sariah " grades either. You need not compare yourself to others. Like I said just do your best! WAY TO GO SIS!! :)

Ponczoch Family said...

I guess I'll forgive you for not fulfilling my dream of you opening a restaurant;). I love school and am very excited for you. I don't like homework and tests, more the classroom setting and the learning. Even though you don't have support from everyone, you have 6 sisters and a ton of cousins, aunts and uncles that are rooting for you. So are you working in the mornings and going to school in the evenings? Sounds like quite the busy life. Good, but busy.

Marangatang said...

yeah, i work early early morning hours and my classes are later at night. it's super swell.

Sariah said...

Well jeez Maranda! You didn't tell me you got a new blog! sheesh. I just found out today talking to Eleasha! Snap! Ok, anyways, I'm so excited for you being back in school. Even when its hard, learning really does something to you. It opens up things in your eyes that you never thought about seeing before. really, it makes the world more colorful and interesting. Even if theres lots of crappy math involved. I wish you all the luck, and i love you oodles! I miss you tons!

Naomi Johnson said...

MARANDA... I am soooo excited for you... now I am the only person in the family who hasn't gone back to school.. I am the only dork here.. You will do great... I wish I could put exclamation points but something is wrong with my keyboard. so 3 periods equals exclamation... hehe :) Hey maybe when you finish you can figure out why my stupid keyboard is screwed up... lol.. And let me tell you too, I never had "sariah" grades either.. so you will do fine I wish you all the best of luck. I am sooooo happy for you...

Gailyn Terry said...

Hey Maranda. Yeah, I'm finally on this thing. Oh and Naomi, yeah, I went back to school but I didn't finish :) (Though I admit I'm close if I get the chance to go back.) You rock Maranda! Way to take charge of your life. We all know we could never really count on certain people for the right kind of motivation so way to move past it! You are more responsible and more aware of what you can do than most people realize and give you credit for. I'm so proud of you and I love you so much! Way to be!